One day in December 2012, I drew a picture of a bird in a golden cage. The cage was
beautiful, it was made of golden, but the bird couldn't fly and it didn't happy. I meant it for myself, thinking that I couldn't do
everything because I didn't get the freedom I always dreaming of. Back
to December 2012, it was true that I couldn't go anywhere and couldn't do anything I wanted. I
thought those were the reasons of my unhappy feelings. I did complain
about everything.
December 2013, I did everything I want, got
anything I wish for, but I realize those were not the reasons of my happiness. I am not only happy, I am more than that. I am
full of joy now. Where this all comes from? I cannot think of anybody but Him. I got my life saved by The Savior, it is the best reason to be happy. Moreover,He gives a right reason to life! It puts joy in my heart forever. I got a best friend and His name is Jesus. He always with me and never leaves me alone. That's enough to make me smile everyday.
Today, freedom for me
is not going anywhere nor doing anything. Freedom is when my happiness
is not depend on other people. Freedom is when i don't live for wrong
reasons. Recently I found out that I cant feel any confusion anymore, in
everything i see Him and He supplies me with never ending joy. There
are tons of reason to be grateful and it all comes from Him.
Looking
back, I don't wanna come back there, it was frightening. In my
imagination it was a dark maze full of sticky green slime and lack of
oxygen, but I couldn't see it before, or worse than that, I chose
not to see. Thank You for opening my eyes. Thank You for setting me free. Thank You for never giving up on me.
I supposed to post this on December 2013 as a closing for 2013, too bad I was home and too busy meeting my hometownies :p
Anyway, happy new year! I believe that 2014 will be awesome because our God stays mighty as always. Have a blessed 2014!
Showing posts with label life meaning. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life meaning. Show all posts
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Fight or Flight!
In medicine, we have one specific hormone called "flight or fight"
hormone. It is called adrenaline. It increases heart rate and makes us
become more alert. Actually, I don't wanna talk about the hormone
itself, this time I wanna talk about the real fight or flight in life.
There will always problems come to life, we cant choose what kind of
problem that will come to our life. But we can choose to fight or to
flight.
Looking back, I think most of the time I chose to flight. It is easier to runaway from problems, just be home, hug your mom, watch movies and read novels to forget your problems. I was deceiving myself, kept telling myself that my life was okay, but actually it was not. I chose to be alone, so that no one can hurt me. My buddy told me that she saw me building a wall, so that people cannot approach me. I didn't realize it before, but one thing that I know for sure, I don't want people to have pity on me.
Now that I am away from home, where can I flee from all these things? Deep inside, it haunted me all the time. I started to seek God more frequently, I thought I need another hidden place to runaway. But God is never a hidden place, He doesn't let me runaway from my problems. When I prayed to Him to let go all my problems, He didn't say yes to it. Instead, He stays with me and strengthens me, then helps me to fight my problems.
Romans 8:37
"Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us."
My God is the real King, He doesn't let His child to be a chicken or a loser. Bible says, Jesus makes me more than a winner. To be a winner, first of all I have to fight the battle. In every fight, I got hurt that I wanna cry out loud and quit. Again, He doesn't let me quit, He wants me to reach the final and be more than a winner. He strengthens me in every fights, He gives me comfort and heals my wounds. The most important thing is I am closer to Him as He leads me in every fight and I can learn to become more like Him.
At the end of the days, I just can say "thanks God, for letting all these things happened in my life." Because I know that His plans are the best for me, that right now He is changing me into someone He would love to see in me.
Let me quoted some from C.S. Lewis
"God allow us to experience lowest points of life in order to teach us lessons that we could learn in no other way."
Instead of my miserable english, I hope the readers can understand what I wrote here. Fight your battles guys, but remember you cannot do it alone. That is why you need Him, He will lead you, heal you, comfort you and make you more than a winner. Have a blessed day, readers!
Looking back, I think most of the time I chose to flight. It is easier to runaway from problems, just be home, hug your mom, watch movies and read novels to forget your problems. I was deceiving myself, kept telling myself that my life was okay, but actually it was not. I chose to be alone, so that no one can hurt me. My buddy told me that she saw me building a wall, so that people cannot approach me. I didn't realize it before, but one thing that I know for sure, I don't want people to have pity on me.
Now that I am away from home, where can I flee from all these things? Deep inside, it haunted me all the time. I started to seek God more frequently, I thought I need another hidden place to runaway. But God is never a hidden place, He doesn't let me runaway from my problems. When I prayed to Him to let go all my problems, He didn't say yes to it. Instead, He stays with me and strengthens me, then helps me to fight my problems.
Romans 8:37
"Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us."
My God is the real King, He doesn't let His child to be a chicken or a loser. Bible says, Jesus makes me more than a winner. To be a winner, first of all I have to fight the battle. In every fight, I got hurt that I wanna cry out loud and quit. Again, He doesn't let me quit, He wants me to reach the final and be more than a winner. He strengthens me in every fights, He gives me comfort and heals my wounds. The most important thing is I am closer to Him as He leads me in every fight and I can learn to become more like Him.
At the end of the days, I just can say "thanks God, for letting all these things happened in my life." Because I know that His plans are the best for me, that right now He is changing me into someone He would love to see in me.
Let me quoted some from C.S. Lewis
"God allow us to experience lowest points of life in order to teach us lessons that we could learn in no other way."
Instead of my miserable english, I hope the readers can understand what I wrote here. Fight your battles guys, but remember you cannot do it alone. That is why you need Him, He will lead you, heal you, comfort you and make you more than a winner. Have a blessed day, readers!
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Life, Its Purpose, and Its Meaning
So, lets get straight to the point: what is the meaning of life? What is the purpose of living a life as a human?
Its been two weeks or maybe more since I got a dream every time I sleep. Usually, I don't dream that often. Every day the dreams were vague and bad, so I woke up tired and weary. I don't know why this is happening to me. Is this a part of heart break and moving on process? Or, is this just because I have too much spare time and my mind wandering too much? Or, is this a normal question that came to every person that live in this world? I just woke up from my nap this afternoon after having a bad dream and realise those all comes from my mind that afraid of being alone and having no purpose.
Everything is meaningless, it is said in Ecclesiastes many times. Life is full of seasons that come and go. Sometimes bad things happen, another time great things come. But after all, life will come to an end. But every ending is a new beginning. Some people believe there will be life after life, some other say there is no life after life and we will have no more existence. If there will be no life after life, it just prove that life is meaningless, everything is meaningless. But for people who believe there will be life after life, what is the purpose of living? Does not immortality just another form of and ending without new entrance? Because it will stuck there.
Some said life is to find it's meaning, some said it's just to be done, to do things and keep on living, the other said life is to fulfil their ambition, and the rest said life is to give life itself meaning.
I believe there's life after life as the bible said so. But, what kind of life it will be, I haven't understood yet. I had no idea why God created human, why He created us, why He created me. What do He want me to do so He created me into someone like this? No, I haven't found the answer yet, but I keep on praying and asking God as The bible said "ask and you'll be given" so many times.
Matthew 6:33
"But above all pursue his kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
I have been denying my questions about life and its purpose because I was afraid that I gonna lose my mind and get lost, afraid that I will lose my grip in christianity. But now I know, I have a Lord and He is my shepherd, He is good shepherd who wont let me get lost and wont left me alone, who will seek for me when I got lost. And as I believe that He is the one created me with a purpose, I should ask Him what it is.
Its been two weeks or maybe more since I got a dream every time I sleep. Usually, I don't dream that often. Every day the dreams were vague and bad, so I woke up tired and weary. I don't know why this is happening to me. Is this a part of heart break and moving on process? Or, is this just because I have too much spare time and my mind wandering too much? Or, is this a normal question that came to every person that live in this world? I just woke up from my nap this afternoon after having a bad dream and realise those all comes from my mind that afraid of being alone and having no purpose.
Everything is meaningless, it is said in Ecclesiastes many times. Life is full of seasons that come and go. Sometimes bad things happen, another time great things come. But after all, life will come to an end. But every ending is a new beginning. Some people believe there will be life after life, some other say there is no life after life and we will have no more existence. If there will be no life after life, it just prove that life is meaningless, everything is meaningless. But for people who believe there will be life after life, what is the purpose of living? Does not immortality just another form of and ending without new entrance? Because it will stuck there.
Some said life is to find it's meaning, some said it's just to be done, to do things and keep on living, the other said life is to fulfil their ambition, and the rest said life is to give life itself meaning.
I believe there's life after life as the bible said so. But, what kind of life it will be, I haven't understood yet. I had no idea why God created human, why He created us, why He created me. What do He want me to do so He created me into someone like this? No, I haven't found the answer yet, but I keep on praying and asking God as The bible said "ask and you'll be given" so many times.
Matthew 6:33
"But above all pursue his kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
I have been denying my questions about life and its purpose because I was afraid that I gonna lose my mind and get lost, afraid that I will lose my grip in christianity. But now I know, I have a Lord and He is my shepherd, He is good shepherd who wont let me get lost and wont left me alone, who will seek for me when I got lost. And as I believe that He is the one created me with a purpose, I should ask Him what it is.
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