Christians Are Cheaters, Too

Everyone in this world lives with disappointments, heartaches, insecurities, fears, and many negative uncontrolled feelings. Some people try to face it, some seek for help, and some others runaway into things. Most of people who can face it finally come back with a bitter heart for knowing the world is never a good place for living. Some people seek for help, try to rely on other people and only get more disappointments at the end. The others runaway into things, drugs, alcohol, job, games, books, hobbies, anything that can take them off from real life, make them forget their pains.

Christians are not exceptionable in this case. Those negative feelings are inevitable too for us. Do you think that Christians are a group of the strongest, wisest, smartest, most diligent, best people so we can face those feelings without getting hurt? NO. Christians are a group of the smallest, laziest, dumbest, weakest, coward, selfish people. We are the worst people that you can ever imagine. That's why we seek for a savior, for we know that we, the worst people, cannot face this world alone. Perhaps, we more than once tried to rely on a person or thing, but we only got more disappointments. Maybe, we more than once run into life-pain-killers, but we became so addictive that it could danger us.

Life is like a Role Playing Game. Let me make it into a parable. Life is a game named "The Hardest Game Ever". We are the players. Everyone is forced to play and finish it. Some people try to play with the rules, try their best to figure out every problem that come. Some people seek for cheats, but every cheat costs, and usually the cost is too high. The others paused their game by runaway into other things for the game is to difficult for them. But sadly, no one could finish the game well. No one got happy ending. Someday, The Game Maker heard that the game is too hard and no one can finish it well. So, The Game Maker decided to send someone He has trained named Jesus Christ. Jesus is sent to finish the game and He made it. After finished the game, Jesus is sent among the players to teach them how to play and finish the game well. Jesus is the only legal, free, and live cheat sent by The Game Maker. He tries to tell everyone the walk through, gives us weapon and guardians, but not everyone believes in Him. There are people that prefer to believe in themself, play the game by following their instinct and feeling only, try to figure out how to finish it well. Some people are seeking for cheats, but not everyone believe in Jesus' walk thourgh, so they seek for other cheats, they pay for the cheats. Christian are a group of cheaters, we cheated on the game, but we choose Jesus as the cheat. Because Christians are the poorest so we seek the free one, we are the dumbest and the laziest so we don't think much to believe in Him, we are coward and selfish so we prefer the one that can guarantee that we will finish the game well.

I consider people who prefer to try to figure the game out by themself as people who believe in logic thinking such as atheists and agnostics, and other cheats as other beliefs.
Why do I choose to use Jesus' cheats for this life? Because it is free, legal, guaranteed from The Life Giver. For people who choose other beliefs, or rely on their logic and skills, I appreciate their choices, but I just cant be one of them. Life is hard, and I'm not a hard-worker so I choose the easiest way, Jesus. Following Jesus is the easiest way to get joy and eternity life. Easiest but not easy. But still the easiest. I'm a coward, selfish, and frightened to any risk, so I follow Jesus, for His path is risk less. There will be risk, but He guarantees to cover it all.

God sent Jesus as savior for everyone, but it is a choice to believe in Him. I choose to believe in Him for He is the one who can guarantee my life safety, which is thing I do not find in other beliefs. So, are you in? I don't expect anybody who read will instantly believe in Him. To believe in Him takes time and processes. But, I hope someday you finally will believe in Him, too.

And, I hope you can understand what I post today despite my bad english, God bless the readers! :D

The Way We Love

There's a brief story I wanna tell you first.
Once upon a time, there lived a girl named Janette. She had a boyfriend named Calvin. One day, Janette's loveliest dog, Goldy died. She cried and then called her boyfriend. Soon, Calvin came to Janette's home. He told her to stop crying and promised to give her a new lovelier dog than Goldy. Janette became angry, she said "nothing can replace Goldy! All I want is Goldy!" She was disappointed with his words, and didn't understand why he could say such a thing. In the other hand, Calvin was disappointed too, he tried his best to make her happy, but she got angry instead. 
Last valentine, Calvin gave her chocolate and teddy bear. Somehow, Janette was disappointed because she expected red roses. She was on diet and Calvin knew it, why he gave her a chocolate? On the contrary, Calvin thought that roses never means anything to him. He never understands why girls love flower which can die in three days.
On Calvin birthday, Janette bought her a new pair of oxford shoes as a gift. When he opened it, he was disappointed. He was expecting for something about soccer. Or, new video games would be nice. 
Lately, these things happened more frequently. Calvin and Janette start to think that they dont understand each other. Finally, they decided to break up.

Do you think it is a sad familiar story, dont you? It happens to many couples. If someone ask about who's wrong here, girls and boys will blame each other. The truth is, no one is wrong, neither Janette nor Calvin is wrong. They just love each other in different way.

The people I love, they always make me wonder if they love me too. Where does this feeling come from? Actually I found that it is simply because we treat the people we love by the way we want to be treated. But, sadly everyone is thinking the same thing. We used to think that if somebody loves us, they will treat us in a way we express love too, and the fact is everyone have different ideas of expressing love. Just like Calvin and Jannete. Calvin said he gonna buy her a new lovelier dog, because if his dog die, he will love to have a new one, so he think if he does the same for Janette, Janette will know that he loves her. But, Janette think it woul be better if Calvin gives her a hug, comforts her, and listen carefully to her story that time, and after that she will stop crying. Their idea of expressing love are totally different, that's the problem. It is a common misunderstanding, happened to many couples simply because they dont understand that they have different ways of expressing love.

I think, we should love our beloved by the way they want to be loved, just to ensure they know that they are loved. The next question is, how will we know the way they will love to be treated? For our family, we can watch carefully how they treat the people they love then we can conclude how they express their love. But, how about that one former stranger that become so important in your life? That's the BIG problem, we always treat them as a mind-reader and so do they. We always wish for their understanding without saying a word. That's almost impossible, even our significance other will not always have the same idea with us.
I've been there too. I was too proud to tell my ex-significance other the way I love to be treated because I wished he will know it without me telling him. My only idea to solve this problem is to tell and to ask. Tell him/her the way you love to be treated, and ask them how him/her loved to be treated. If he/she doesn't want to tell you and tell you to figure out by yourself, it will be good as long as she/he gives you clues, but if she/he need you figure out of nowhere that will be a beginning for disaster. Well, at least, you have done you part; to tell and to ask.

Today I learn to treat people the way they want to be treated, the way they think love is expressed, just to ensure they know they are loved by me. Will you love to learn that, too? Because I hope that will bring a brighter smile in the faces of our beloved. Don't hesitate to ask them if you cant figure it out, we better ask than being mislead into miscommunication by our thoughts.

That's all I can share today. Sorry for my bad grammar and vocabularies. Everything is too mixed up in my head tonight, just hoping I didn't make any non-sense sentence here. Thanks for reading anyway!
Don't forget to hug our beloved, because look like hug is never a wrong way to express love :)

Because (My) Sisters are Gift

First of all, I'm not posting this after having fun or sharing hugs with my sisters. No.

I was born from a couple that blessed with four daughters, I'm their last. The youngest one. My sisters are considered much older than me. The oldest is 10 years older, the second is 6 years older, and the third is 4 years older than me.

When I was little, my home was full of their laughter and I loved it so. I had no private place because we were sharing bed room. But we're sharing life at the same time. As time went by, my older sister had to move to another city for her further study, years later my two other sister did too. And finally when I was in the last year of Junior High School they had to left me alone at home. Feeling lonely? Of course yeah. I lost the person whom I used to share daily stories, lunch, supper, books, bedroom, clothes, shoes, hugs, everything.
One of the worst feeling I ever felt was having my sister taken by her husband forever. She is still mine, but not fully-mine, just sometimes-mine. Now she has another face to call home, another house to come after work. I'm watching that soon everyone is going to pursue career, find a life partner, move out from home, and finally have their own life. Sad to see this is happening, but this is life. Sometimes life drift some people apart from our life.
My sister and I, we are not always getting along well. We fight sometimes, fight the changes that come. Although at the end, we will understand and accept the changes. They aren't always lovable, but I love them so much, the bad and the good. They aren't always nice, but I love having them around. They aren't always have time for me, but I know I can call them whenever I need them. They are busy now, but I know they are trying to make time for me. They don't always show it, but I know they care about me. They don't always hug me, but I know they love me.
I was not sharing the happiness of falling in love with them, even they got forgotten by me. But when it comes about heart break, they are there to wipe my tears, to force me eating, to make laugh, to convince everything is gonna be alright.

From left: the second, me, the first, the third. Because having them is a blessing!

We fight and we love, we are fighting because we are loving each other. And if they ever gonna read this (and not laugh due to the grammar), let me just say I love you sist.