Kindhearted or just OK?

Some researches show that we tend to think that we are better than we actually are. Another random fact, we usually claim to have a kind heart or at least nice, never break the state law, never kill, never divorce, etc

Are we kindhearted or just OK? Definition of a kindhearted is having or showing a kind and gentle nature. Is it? For me it's like the sentence isn't complete yet. It should be 'having or showing a kind and gentle nature constantly and for all'. 

To be a kindhearted is to show a lovely actions for everybody and constantly, never being absent and especially for a reason 'we are only human'. Yes, we are human, a kindhearted human. 

Maybe not most, just some people tend be kind to people who kind to them. It doesn't take a kindhearted guy to do that, everybody does. But to be kindhearted is to be kind to whom who has been unkind to us.
Kind actions should be constant. Being a kindhearted is not depending on our mood, do not let our mood drive our actions and ruin our days.

Being kind isn't an easy-peasy thing, it sure take commitment, lots of practice, and prayers, still I believe it will be worth it. Why? Because He wants us to be.

In this instant super short post I only wanna tell you two things I wrote above because I think that was important. For specific definition of being kindhearted and only nice, you can seek it on Bible, it has all the details. Hoping I can write about it someday. 
Have a nice day!

How To Complete Everyday

I'm on holiday now and get pretty much leisure time. Most of my time i spent to read new books, fiction, cooking, poems, etc. I also spent plenty time going outside and hanging out with friends and my sisters. Other things I usually do are looking at social media (try to catch up with the latest trends and issues, of course), listening to new songs (I kinda love Onerepublic's Something I Need and Clean Bandit's Rather Be right now) and old songs (I'm a big fan of Jazz! Frank Sinatra, Tony Bennet, Rod Stewart, Michael Bublé, I love them), also doing research in my campus and nearest hospital. Everyday I tried to spend my day with positive activities, and I still at the end of the day I felt something was missing. I was feeling rather empty. How it can be with a day full of activities?

At some point, I just tired with all those new songs, none sounded like good enough to be listened. And all that books? I felt they are useless and unimportant. So, I back to my all time favorite, newest Hillsong album that I've been listening almost everyday since February or March, and... my bible. I found that what Apostle Paul wrote approximately 2000 years ago is more interesting than Tatler newest restaurant review. Absolutely the Bible also contains something very important and everlasting. Hanging out with friend is always great, but I felt like I miss somebody else.

Deep inside, I knew what I was missing. I just simply miss Him.

These day, I only pray in the morning, before eating, and before sleeping. Rarely I pray something in between those times. I was too busy making myself busy to keep my mind busy from something that I better not think or remember. I miss Him and it made my day incomplete.

Have you ever feel like feeling empty even though you got a pretty good busy day? Sometimes I do, and for me the only thing that helps is praying. It does not just help, praying cures. If you ever feel so, talk to God, I believe He misses you too.

My Total Freedom

One day in December 2012, I drew a picture of a bird in a golden cage. The cage was beautiful, it was made of golden, but the bird couldn't fly and it didn't happy. I meant it for myself, thinking that I couldn't do everything because I didn't get the freedom I always dreaming of. Back to December 2012, it was true that I couldn't go anywhere and couldn't do anything I wanted. I thought those were the reasons of my unhappy feelings. I did complain about everything.

December 2013, I did everything I want, got anything I wish for, but I realize those were not the reasons of my happiness. I am not only happy, I am more than that. I am full of joy now. Where this all comes from? I cannot think of anybody but Him. I got my life saved by The Savior, it is the best reason to be happy. Moreover,He gives a right reason to life! It puts joy in my heart forever. I got a best friend and His name is Jesus. He always with me and never leaves me alone. That's enough to make me smile everyday.

Today, freedom for me is not going anywhere nor doing anything. Freedom is when my happiness is not depend on other people. Freedom is when i don't live for wrong reasons. Recently I found out that I cant feel any confusion anymore, in everything i see Him and He supplies me with never ending joy. There are tons of reason to be grateful and it all comes from Him.

Looking back, I don't wanna come back there, it was frightening. In my imagination it was a dark maze full of sticky green slime and lack of oxygen, but I couldn't see it before, or worse than that, I chose not to see. Thank You for opening my eyes. Thank You for setting me free. Thank You for never giving up on me.

I supposed to post this on December 2013 as a closing for 2013, too bad I was home and too busy meeting my hometownies :p
Anyway, happy new year! I believe that 2014 will be awesome because our God stays mighty as always. Have a blessed 2014!